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Hey everyone!
I'm still alive and trying to be more active on DA now.
Forgive me that I haven't been around. I will explain everything but I'm warning you... this may be a lot of text.
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Ready? Here we go.
So we were in the house we had been renting since 2013, my family having moved up to Massachusetts from the lovely state of Florida in November 2012 to take care of my uncle who is a grade 4 heart patient. He had been through the loss of his wife, heart bypass surgery, a dozen heart attacks and of course, extreme daily stress to simply survive. When we met up with him on his birthday, November 10th, 2012, he wasn't doing well at all, he was surviving but losing all will to live. So we assured him that we would help him recover and he wouldn't have to live on his own ever again. This was the start of a journey I never expected to make us homeless, struggling to survive. And we're still doing it to this day, August 29th, 2015. My uncle had heard about a house for rent not far from where he was staying at the time. A friend of his former employer. The house was a place for us to rest and at least make food for ourselves, we took it because we had no other option and honestly I wish we hadn't. The house was infested with fleas, insects, mold and hazardous materials in the well water. Simply trying to survive, we put up with it for a year, asked the landlord to correct things, a cleaner water source, the mold removed and to be battled against to protect us. A normal, caring landlord would have happily done this to keep it's tenants happy to be at the location. Long story short, she blew us off, deathly sick and wanted all of her rent money, no matter what was wrong. I was attempting to finish for my diploma at a local high school, as I had to drop out in my senior year due to my uncle's medical condition. So began a court battle to get her to fix things around the house. She fixed the windows and cleaned out all the crap from the cellar, but didn't resolve any issues that we stressed were essential to our everyday life, water, clean walls and installation. We didn't care about the windows in the giant spectrum of things.
So I went to work, having worked at Dunkin Donuts for a year. I loved that job, but it ended because of the new manager that replaced the original. Then I began working at a gas station about five minutes from the house. It was easy to get back and forth and a low impact job, but my boss had saw we were suffering and happily worked things out with me, so I had money to keep going, that we had heat all the winter of 2014. I worked all the hours that I could, basically becoming assistant manager, and one of the best workers. March 14th, 2015, my 21st birthday was the last time I could remember being safe, happy and not struggling. That was the month that I started my own business for the Company ItWorks. The company and my team-mates renewed a fire to survive and change things. I still run this business, everyday from the laptop and my cell phone before my keyboard killed over two weeks ago. I started my business as a birthday gift to myself.
But then April came and everything turned upside down. We were forced out on April 2nd, 2015, becoming homeless and having to grab the belongings we could pack into two vehicles, our three fur babies and ourselves, forced out in the middle of the night. Our local friend and her significant other had saw our situation since it started, had offered her home as a place of refuge, us cleaning for her and small tasks. My uncle again fell ill, and had fallen three times since we had gotten out of that horrible house that had poisoned us. He lost all control of his legs and is in rehab now to regain some of the ability to control his legs again. But he has a lung infection. We're praying every day that he can gain some of his strength back, but having reasonable goals as he is only running on 15% of his heart, dealing with Kawasaki's disease on the daily basis as well. Said friend has been such a blessing to us. She loaned us the money to buy a 85' motor home, regaining some level of normalcy. We're paying her back in increments and everything is starting to fall back into place now, but it's still hard, you know? Remember, I'm only 21, I have two disabled parents, a Vietnam veteran who has been the best father I could ever ask for. We swear that he is half robot though, because he has had two broken knees, a broken neck and is a heart patient himself. He's the rock of the family though. :heart: rvmp My mother has lyme disease, chronic fatigue, a weak immune system, and fibromalygia. She had worked all of her life, having lost my grandmother at the age of 19, my grandfather being an alcoholic, and my uncle, her other brother making some horrible decisions. I gotta give it to her, she's so strong even though her body won't let her be physically strong. My uncle is a disabled Navy veteran, a hard worker for all of his life. It shocked me having seen them at their strongest and now at their weakest. I'm trying to do all I can, but sometimes I wonder if I'm strong enough. I've had grand mal seizures, brain bleeds and was born premature. No I'm not pitying myself, I am strong. But I have physical limits too, right?
This turned out to be more of a vent thing, but I just wanted you lovelies to be up to speed to what's happened so far to us and why I'm relatively quiet. I love each and every one of you. You are awesome, remember that.
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So what's going to happen now? We're trying to clean up the RV, make it homey and up to date. Me? I'm studying for my GED, making sure my family is happy and safe, working from the laptop, and this coming month, will be opening PenguinnxCrafts on Etsy and possibly RedBubble for business. I will be stocking up loom knit items, knit items, crochet items and more. So keep looking for that when I release it! I will be also re-vamping my blog, so I will be adding the link for that in the near future as well
Be patient with me, as I'm recovering from a bad case of stomach flu and dealing with severe acid reflux, I will be sending lovely notes, comments and such to each of you.
-Check em out! No pressure, just positive vibes! Note me with any questions you may have, I always have time for questions!  Supernatural - Paranoid Dean
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I love you all so much. Keep on going strong, I'm here for every one of you lovely people. Heart Dance - NaNo28 Fella Heart Kiss (Love) Heart 3D Heart free avatar 
For now,
  • Listening to: the Science Channel
  • Watching: Computer screen
  • Eating: I'm really hungry.
  • Drinking: Coffee
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phoenixgryffin Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
peachtales Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2015
Sending best wishes for comfort, healing and happiness. I hope things get better for all of you.

I sit here typing this not quite 3 weeks after spine surgery. I hope things get better for yu and me and everyone who needs it.
Saralia Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I hope all the best to you...
Kaerlyn Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi there! I was just dropping by to say thanks for the :+fav: but then I read your journal. I hope things are looking up for you, it sounds like you've had quite a struggle recently. *hugs* God bless, take care of yourself, and all the best with your studies! :3
mikesmom37 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2015  Student General Artist
your strength and loyalty to your family is wonderful.
you are remembered in my daily prayers!
God bless!!!!
Bee047 Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Wow, you are so brave to keep going on through all this, and being so caring for the people around you... You're a hero, for all these caring persons around you, and for yourself too. Even on the days you say to yourself "I wish I could do more", you are still doing a lot more than many others, and in the reasonable limits of yours (emotional, physical, etc) you are doing all you can, I'm sure. The way you wrote this journal tells it. And, you are a hero.

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Safyer Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I am very sorry things went bad.  I have been through a bad situation (which I will not discuss unless you send me a note and are interested) as well.   It looks like things are on their way to getting better.  I am GLAD that you have a safe environment in which you can take care of your family, though, I hope things get even better for you.  I recently opened a shop on etsy as well selling my work. :)  I hope your shop goes well and provides you with some money!

Stay strong! You can get through this.  You have been through so much already.  You are already stronger than you know.  Huggle!  

I know you don't know me but if you need to talk, I am here for you.  Huggle!   Just send a note.
MoonyMina Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I was so sorry to read about all the things that turned out badly for you... you are really a good and loving person, you really deserve things to get not only better, but truly great! I wish it for you... and I'm glad you have a friend who can truly help you, concretely...
I understand what it is to have to take care of people who have big health problems, too, because Hubby and I take care of my Gran (my brother helps, too, so it's not so bad), who's 90... she's quite healthy for a person of her age, having survived cancer and with a Parkinson, but she needs us for the shopping, the cleaning, the bills and stuff... and we also take care of Hubby's father, who cannot walk a lot (he has one of these rolling walkers you can rely on when walking), has heart problems, diabetes, blood and lung issues and has lost a big part of his digestive tube... it's not easy every day, but we do it gladly... the important thing is, I would say, to take time for yourself, take time to do useless things and relax... even if it's not often, it helps a lot... and I think your birthday gift for yourself with your business is a great thing... enjoying what one does, making things for oneself from time to time is necessary when you have so many things to carry on your shoulders...

so I really, really wish things will get a lot better for you and your family... *sends a bunch of positive vibes* ... if ever you want to get things off your chest, share a bit, or simply talk about anything but that, you can Skype me, or note me, I'll gladly take the time to read and answer :)
Xanntera Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
You are indeed a very strong young woman! and a huge kudos for your courage and stregnth! I know what it is to be in a situation of living hell, and although each situation is unique, the bottom line is pain is still pain. I have recently come to the same conclusion that strength is indeed a virtue, however we all have limits as human beings, and it's normal to break sometimes (as horrible as it is to go through) but there is no shame in falling apart sometimes, just aslong as you pick yourself back up after. Keep up your good fight and stay strong, but remember you still need to care for yourself as much as possible, don't break yourself if you can save yourself and always remember that everything is temporary. I wish you and your family all the best and i truely hope you manage to find a safe and secure environment for your whole family. and Jah bless all of your wonderful friends for being the vital support network you need. You're not alone and you truely are a beautiful person.
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